I’ve tried it all with weight loss.
The pills – both prescribed and over the counter. Shakes. Meal plans. Magic drinks. Fad diets. Keto. Workouts. The programs.
I tried. I really did. And they never worked. It was me. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t “cure” my food addiction. Which then made each failure compound time after time. And then I would feel so ashamed… and the cycle would start all over. That’s the thing with weight loss, the journey is not linear (or easy).
At some point, I determined this was my life.
This was my future. I was stuck and that was it. That the body I have was the consequence of my nights and years of stress and emotional eating. It was my “punishment”. It’s hard to change a physical outcome because of a mental/emotional struggle.
Kind of weird to promote #bodypositivity but struggle with it myself, right? I know that I am a strong, powerful woman and working mom, no matter my pant size. And I CELEBRATE other women who embrace and love their bodies.
But, that doesn’t mean my journey to truly loving myself, hasn’t been hard or easy. I still really struggle. Yes, Seint has helped the way I feel about myself, but it involves so much more than that. I have a lot more to share on this, and I will!
I believe in moderation. Overall health. Whole, clean foods. And a treat now and again. 😉 So here I am! I’m saying “peace-out” to diet culture. I’m re-wiring my brain every single day to use food as a fuel for my body. Some days, I really struggle. Some days, I do ok. I am taking it all one bite at a time.
And I’m excited for the new journey that I’m currently on… 💛
In June, about a week before my 33rd birthday I made a decision that would no doubt change the rest of my life.
Something that I had been researching for over 3 years. Nope, it’s not Seint related. Any guesses? I will say, as soon as I made the decision, I felt an abundance of peace and watched everything fall into place over the next few weeks.
At the beginning of August, with my husband by my side I traveled to Tijuana, Mexico for a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgical procedure, also known as a VSG, removes 80% of the stomach and is classified as a weight loss surgery. The portion of the stomach that is removed is the same portion that produces a hormone that boosts your appetite and makes you feel hungry or crave food.
Before surgery, I met with my doctor here (who I had full support from), a nutritionist, psychologist, and a handful of other doctors. I kept this very personal decision from nearly everyone in my life.
After trying everything in the book, surgery was my last option. 𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 about this route has been easy – my recovery hasn’t been a walk in the park (it’s actually been rough). I have struggled – most of August I felt like garbage. I’m being 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 to listen to my body in a very loud way. I have to be very intentional about what I eat and choose foods that are going to fuel my body.
I’ve had so many reservations about sharing this part of me…
I hope you’ll respect that 𝐈 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐡. It has never been about being a certain size to me, or about being “one of those makeup influencers on Instagram” who has to look a certain way. It’s all about how I feel on the inside. And, I don’t have a “goal weight” because I’m not working towards a destination. Really, it’s about wanting to run and play with my kids, to not be so tired, anxious and depressed …. to 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 and have a greater 𝐪𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 of life. Also, I am grateful for the men and women who shared this option before me so I could know about it. 💚
This past week, I told my family and a couple of my very close friends. Today, I am sharing in hopes to remove some of the stigma behind weight loss surgery. We are 𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 capable of hard and big things. Whatever you’re facing, don’t give up your fight.
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